(print on left from Lara Casey)
Happy Monday, beautiful and capable and loyal friends. I’m so happy you have stopped by today.
I’ve had this on my heart for a while now and wanted to blog about it for some time. I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that I would blog more this year for me. Please don’t misunderstand – when I blog photos of the wonderful people I work with, that is most definitely for me too. I only mean to blog more for the Caitlin that exists outside of the photography realm. While photography and this ‘pinch-me-is-this-really-my-job’ career of mine that is blossoming by the second before my eyes is absolutely an enormous part of my life, there is so much more to me. There is so much more to Caitlin – the imperfectly perfect girl behind this blog.
I’ve worked really, really, really hard to define my voice. It is no secret that I am a positive person. Heck, my brand is centered around a ray of sunshine. I often blog about being thankful and seeing the glass as half full. Blogging in a light of gratitude, albeit hard at times, is a choice I make every single time I hit Publish and share my life with the world.
What I never want is for anyone coming here to think for a second that I’m that girl that is constantly blowing sunshine out of my ass from a place that isn’t authentic. Think that may be the first time I’ve said ass here and it probably won’t be the last.
I am a real person. I hurt. I’ve experienced great pain in my life. But in spite of the pain, I choose joy. That is my voice. Life can be heavy. We all know that. I’m not interested in dwelling on that here. As far as I’m concerned, this blog is an open party to celebrate anything and everything that makes you truly happy. With every image and every last word, I draw from a very real place that believes in love and happiness and honesty and compassion.
I can’t tell you how many people have told me how they love to come to my blog when they’re having a bad day or feeling uninspired. They tell me my blog makes them feel HAPPY. They tell me my blog makes them SMILE. You guys!!! Do you have any idea how much this means to me? Do you have any idea how this sets my heart ablaze? Even in typing this now, I’m shaking. No, not caffeine. Having a voice that spreads joy is what makes me tick.
And that’s just it: JOY is what I have to offer to this world.
I won’t lie – there have been times in the past when I didn’t post something because I thought to myself, “Oh, what if they think I’m too happy?” I’m sorry. What? Rewrite.
I need to post about this happiness because it is authentically me. Because, in sharing my joy, I could quite possibly change the trajectory of someone’s life for the positive. Because, why not share happiness in a world that is seemingly run down by the negative?
That doesn’t mean I’m numbing or ignoring pain and difficulty in my life. It means making the conscious choice to draw from a heart that is full of thanks.
That Caitlin pictured above? The disheveled, I-just-rolled-out-of-bed-and-I’m-wearing-zero-makeup-and-can’t-be-bothered-because-I’m-about-to-be-in-a-car-for-10-hours Caitlin, she is far from perfect but damn she has a whole lot of love and joy to give.
It’s taken me far too long to be able to say this publicly but I am proud of her. I’m proud of what she has to offer.
I can’t care anymore what others may think. I won’t. Life is too damn short.
Be you. Be authentically you.
With teary eyes and a grateful heart, publish…..